School is starting back tomorrow and there's exactly 80 more days to SPM. Am I ready? lol obviously not. Before this holiday, I told myself that I have to make full use of it by studying. Well that's what most of us said. I didn't really make use of my holidays to study; maybe for some other things. I mean, I did study, but it's like tuitions; long hours of tuition. I guess it's better than nothing right? It's a nice holiday I guess, spent it with friends & well yeah mostly friends.

The whole two weeks, I have sleeping like after 12am, which is not good. Scary imaginations keep running through my head. I overthink. I can think about a really simple thing and then it becomes like super complicated. Most of the thoughts are of course about the future.

F u t u r e.
90% of people that I met in my daily life would ask me "what are you planning to do after SPM?" I'll most probably be in KL (the place that I hope I won't have to be in after form 5) as the course that I want to pursue in is only available there; TarCollege. I would of course prefer to be nearer to home like maybe in Sarawak or just stay in KK for another year but unfortunately, I have no choice. TarCollege is linked to Liverpool college so I must not think negatively about it. Am I ready to be independent? Of course not. Thank God Trini & Tiana might also be going there. YAY APARTMENT-MATES. When the time comes, I know I'll be able to be independent. I mean, I have no other choice right?